My Life Will Go As Follows

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Watch Movies

Eat

Make Pumpkin Pie Shakes

Go To School

Make Friends Transfer Into My Classes

Listen to Music Really Loud

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Write

Eat some more

Cry while watching Parenthood

Tickle My Little Siblings

Try and Control My Hair

Taco Tuesday

In Bed By 11

Up By 7

Lather, Rinse, Repeat.

And I am loving every second of it.

That's super weird, cause Andrew and I are dating.

I fell into this thing we call the rabbit whole and I'm emerging someone completely new. At first it's subtle, but soon I'm asking Griffin Kerr to a dance and running through the Smith's parking lot dressed as an old man* and pulling down four pairs of giant underwear in public**. But I'm still scared to go to english class and wear high wasted pants, so maybe the old me is still somewhere below the surface. Or I guess it's possible that I just don't really know who "I" am. Is this what they call growing up?

Me: "It's going to be a great day" *stretches arms*

Giant Zit: "HA!"

*I know what you're thinking. "Clever Em, that is so random, how did you think of such a funny thing? You must be making it up, because no one who is allowed outside of a mental institution does that". Truth is folks, totes*** did that.

**And that. yeah....

***totally

Neon isn't a color, it's a state of being.

-M

My facebook page now reads;

Emily Henson

Auror at the Ministry of Magic.

I finally learned to fishtail. horribly, but fishtail nonetheless.

i have this hair. like ^ that's me...

The other day I had one of the deepest, most honest discussions I've ever had. I said things I've never dared to utter and I listened to things I never dreamt of hearing. I left feeling heavy, but with an enormous amount of weight lifted off my shoulders. (contradictory, i know. sue me.)  So when people ask me how my night was I say "fun", but it's a total lie. I will never look back and say "gee that was fun." It wasn't a laughing matter, though we did laugh on occasion. We smiled but not because we were talking about happy things or playing a game. We smiled because for once we had someone to listen to us. We had each other. 

It's completely possible that I'm being melodramatic. 

-M

We'll regret the things we didn't do more than the stupid things we did

So many people tell me what I am, what I could be, and what I should do. So many people tell me to fall in love, get married, and have 11 babies before the age of 23. So many people telling me I'll go on a mission. Telling me we'll get back together. Telling me he's a jerk. Telling me I should try out. Telling me what music to listen to. Telling me what what I can do, what I can't do. So many people talking, my voice is getting drowned out by the crowd.

So if you were wondering.

Here's what I want.

• I want to laugh hard every day.
• I want to travel the world
• I want to fall in love
• I want to be patient
• I want to smile 99% of the time
• I want to look back and be proud of what I've done in life
• I want to write it all down
• I want to turn my flaws into my best characteristics
• I want to forget about everyone who leaves me
• I want to see the world like a newborn does
• I want to break the rules
• I want to scream and have everyone hear me
• I want to dance and not doubt myself
• I want to perform
• I want to live my life like a novel
• I want to change people
• I want to never pretend the world is something it isn't
• I want to wake up every morning grinning
• I want to feel beautiful
• I want to know I'm worth it
• I want to let go
• I want to go crazy
• I want to be liked for myself, not in spite of myself
• I want to grow old with you
• I want to act like I'm young
• I want to play pretend
• I want to imagine the impossible
• I want to know I tried my absolute hardest.
• I want to do it my way

And that's all I need to succeed. So next time someone asks me what I want to do with my life, I'm going to tell them that I don't know what I'll be or who I'll be with, but I do know that I will always live freely. I will always smile when I feel like frowning, and I will always love with no hesitation. I'll die knowing that I was all I could be in life, and that's completely fine with me.