I declare bankrupcy

 I apologize to all those who I've pretended to understand. This one is for the underdogs. I sort of thought I was one, but it took feeling like one and being treated like one to realize that I am more lucky than I ever thought. It took being laughed at behind my back. It took the boys in my english class making the girl who reads and writes all the time* do all the work.  It took them making me feel useless and my feelings insignificant. It took my voice shaking when I finally got up the nerve to talk to him. It took all that for me to realize that I have never felt bullied before. Before today.

But I'm lucky. I'm lucky because as soon as I moved on and saw my real friends, I remembered that I still think I'm worth something. So I'm sorry. I'm so sorry to anyone who has ever had to feel the way I felt today. I'm sorry to anyone who I've made feel even the least bit nonessential.

Every breath you breathe is essential.

*me

I was afraid of falling off the earth. 

Back when it was flat 

I couldn't even swim in the ocean.

Or take a deep breath. 

When the sun was going to explode,

I was afraid to step out of the shade.

And I never looked at

How blue the sky could be.

"Nice to meet you, I'm Emily."